Ugh...

Why am I depressed?
Why am I masochistic?
Why am I suicidal?

All these thoughts, and they hurt so much. I just want the pain to end. I want it all to go away. I want to stop being emo when I'm alone, when nobody's around, but it's all the time. I'm so lonely. I'm so very very lonely. Why don't people want to answer, or when they do, why won't they talk? Why won't they call me? Why do they ignore me throughout the day? Why can't someone just drop in sometime and talk to me?

I want to leave this place. I'm so very tired. I cannot explain the things I do anymore. They just happen.

I'm losing myself. What do I do?